Fumblin' with sweat on my fingers, somethin' impetuous lingers
Become infected with feelings so I'm electing this evil
To end my life without reason cause I'm indicted for treason
Closin' my eyes and I'm leakin', draggin' the knife till I'm bleedin'
Cause it's the life that I'm seekin', feels only right that I'm meetin'
With Jesus seeking redemption but he don't want my repentance
For he who feels my intention sees that my deepest impression
Is feeding me to these demons that lurk and feed on my essence
The pain is deep in my chest and I keep repeatin' my blessings
Ever since a meek adolescence that saw me beaten by freshmen
Parents repeatedly sentenced, heroin needles on dressers
They use to feed their infection, I can't repeat indescretions
So I pause for reflection, long for honest affection
And getting lost in the music is only soothing for stretches
If you knew where my head is when I'm doing these records
You'd never listen to my music again, I can't let you.....