What is my friend (guy) thinking after what happened that night?
 

Let me start with a little bit of background. I knew him not that long ago (march 2009). We talked and hanged out occasionally. We got close enough to the point that when he did drugs (like E), he'd tell me. Out of curiosity, I tried E with him one day. But he was drunk and didn't take it. Only I did. He told me he'd take care of me and told me not to worry. He told me about how I would feel and what I'd do on E (like I'd be really talkative and become touchy which I did).

However, I totally didn't expect to get really sexual. And I started kissing and hugging him. I was feeling really sexual that I started to touch him and asked him if he wanted to do it. But I was also resisting myself from doing it because I knew it was because of E. We didn't have condoms and in the end, we didn't do it. We almost did though. Oh, and I was really in love with him. Although I have to say I don't even like him more than friend normally. I'm not attracted to him at all. But on E, he was the only one there, and I guess I gave lots of love to the only person available which was him.

After the night, I kept texting, calling him for another 15 hours saying how much I love him and want to be with him. I guess he kinda freaked out.

After 2 days, E was totally out of my system. And I texted him saying that I was sorry about what happened and I didn't mean what I said. It was the effects of E and won't happen again. He didn't text me back. I went on AIM and talked to him and he wouldn't respond. From that day, we never talked again, and I don't quite understand why.

I know I might have freaked him out during E and after because I was totally in love with the guy. But now I'm all normal (and he can tell I'm normal from my FB) he'd ignore me. I want to know what he's thinking, and what I should do to fix this friendship, if it's still fixable.

Thanks!

ps. about E. I won't try it again so don't worry about that.
ps.2 I was only in love with him coz of E

How old are you?

Your story is easy to ridicule, but I'll try and give an honest answer. I think the guy thinks you wanna be together with him, something he's not at all interested in. You've spooked him. I'd say give it up and move on.

.. And don't do E again. Especially not around guys who are not taking it?

I'm 21 btw. A senior in college
Hmm. I don't think he thinks I wanna be with him tho. He can clearly see from my FB that I'm not interested in a relationship or in being in a relationship with him...although i'm not too sure

If he wasn't interested in screwing you after you basically begging him to do it for 2 days I doubt he's even thinking of you at all.

Urban's right.
My guess is you did fancy him and the E had less a part to play than you'll admit.
Secondly, don't waste your time chasing someone who obviously isn't interested.
That'll just make you less attractive to him than is already the case.

Ecstasy only lasts like four hours sweetheart, there's no way on this planet that MDMA would last two days. The only other drug I could think of with any empathogenic effects at all that would last anywhere near two days is DOB, which trust me would be a COMPLETELY different experience... you would know it wasn't Ecstasy.

So, now we know that you freaked out and told your friend you love him for fifteen hours straight, texting him even though he wasn't responding, with no drugs in your system what-so-ever.

Of course he doesn't want to talk to you, I'm sorry, you scared the guy. I would just stop thinking about it while you can and try to not get all caught up in the tangles of infatuation, bouncing about between shame, doubt, and hopeless romantic fantasies with nothing to back them in reality but intense feelings. Trust me I've done it.

Although, from what you say, it doesn't sound like you'll do that because of course when your not "on the E" you don't "love" him. Why don't you try asking a friend to help you chill and get your mind off of this whole situation and just let things take their place naturally, you can't control your friend and he won't give you answers if he doesn't want to. Friends come and go for various reasons in life anyway, and this guy doesn't exactly sound like a great friend anyway.

Also just so you know this is a music forum.

Hope I helped,
-Schizo

Um, maybe drugs emphasised your emoticons?
And, hes scared I guess. 'Cause you came across as pretty desperate, in my opinion.
I'd say move on.

This thread did not play out like I thought it would.

i know,...i'm so sad about that too

Next bloke you're getting close to I'd advise doing some acid. Don't really have a reason, but I live vicariously and would love to see how it goes.