A Sense Of Life Lived According To Love
Based off a recent family reunion.
A Sense Of Life Lived According To Love
The familys all here, we've got balloons
Fake smiles, hugs and burning barbeques,
Its been years and they pretend to care
Dotting each others sorrow with pink hearts,
As my little cousins play football in the yard,
"Someday you'll burn like the rest of them,
But give it time, it hasn't been so long."
We're all out under the sun burning alive in its light,
And I sit running my fingers through my hair,
Giving the answers they seek amongst all the questions,
I was always taught to respect my elders,
To call you father never daddy,
To leave you alone when sat in your study
Writing words I always hated,
To play quiet games when you needed to think,
And to shut the fuck up when you began to speak.
But it hasn't been so long, maybe I can let go of my hate,
And alot of times it does seem so misplaced,
I hear your voice in my head, judging every step I take,
I know I have nothing to prove,
Its just me, pretending to be a ghost resembling you.
Yeah maybe someday you'll hear my words in your head,
The soft cracking of my voice and the way I always tried to make you proud,
How I love you came to my lips but always fell away,
Maybe someday you'll hear my words in your head,
And how my voice cracks for you like a tree before it falls.
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I dyed my hair in a motel void met the coroner at the Dreamgate Frontier,
He took my hand said I'll help you boy if you really want to disappear.
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