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What happened when you quit abruptly and how long were you on it?
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Around a year or so. I’m afraid antidepressants interfere with my art appreciation
What happened was the symptoms that were corrected started and continues to resurface.
At the worst it was near constant ocd like negative dark thoughts
Constant suicide ideation -
it’s painful to recall but like during a bath I would imagine how my corpse would look if I slit my wrists
driving - this vehicle would be a suitable place to shoot myself / easy clean up - just junk the car
like that all the time for considerable stretches - months
other times - horrific things running through my mind - lots of it having to do with ways my dog could get hurt or die which hurts me emotionally more than anything
Prozac made it so bad thoughts became just passing not chronic obsessive like
But I quit and I’m only depressed maybe like two days out of ten or so
Before it was years - I mean on those tests the dr gives you: Have you ever been sad for two weeks without reprieve?
I couldn’t believe that was considered depression. I went without reprieve from sorrow for years.