Key

I went to the doctor a few weeks ago for the first time in over 10 years and I just set up a follow up appointment to check on my blood work. My doctor says that I need to get seen for my low thyroid as well as my kidney and liver functions. I've known that I have liver and kidneys issues all the way from when I was a kid, but I've put off medical visits for so long due to anxiety and not having insurance. I finally decided to just go and the doctor will help me out if need be.

My mom is kind of freaking out because while to me it doesn't seem like a big issue at the moment, she told me that this could be potentially serious, and I'm just trying to wait until my doctors appointment next week and he'll fill me in on everything I need to do. There is a small chance that I will need to get a procedure done / get treatment for my liver as it has been a long time coming. My thyroid is also concerning as it's much lower than it should be, and that could lead to bigger heart issues later on. So I'm trying to get this all sorted now and hopefully get ahead of it before I run into any other issues. I have noticed in recent months that my breathing has been a little off but that could be due to a number of things. I quit smoking cigs many months ago now but still smoke weed from time to time.

There's a chance that I have what's called hyperthyroidism, but again, I'm waiting for my doctor to fill me in on that before I jump to any conclusions. At the moment, I'm just waiting for that and we'll go from there.

All I can really do right now for myself is to keep myself calm and just wait until I see my doctor. As much as I'd like to believe that this could be nothing, it could very well be serious as well so I want to take it seriously as much as I can while also keeping myself calm.

I'll provide an update once I know more but this is just a reminder that if you haven't gotten a physical or have not seen a doctor in a decent amount of time, I recommend going. I'm not insured but fortunately I can cover the costs. I know that's not the same for everyone, but I just wish everyone good health. And really, just take care of yourself.

Trollheart

Tough one, Key. Hope all works out well. I'll be thinking of ya.

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Key

Thanks. I'm just being patient until my dr appt. I'll know more next week. Heh. Patient. Dr. Ha I made a pun.

Lisnaholic

Yep, I think that's good advice, even if it can be expensive and/or uncomfortable.
I hope things go ok for you Key, and if I may offer some advice myself while you wait for your appointment: repeat to yourself: "I don't know anything about it. I can't change anything about it. I'm going to forget about it, until I turn up at the Doc's."

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FETCHER.

I hope all goes well Key. I’ll have my fingers crossed that you’re all okay.

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Key

Thank you both. Whatever it is that they will be looking at, I know that I'll be in good care. I'm just an overly anxious person in general. It'll be alright. I will provide an update as soon as I can. I feel fine overall. But that's not always a tell that you're healthy. All will be good though.

FETCHER.

I know, sometimes the waiting and not knowing is worse than the appointment itself. Try not to think on it too much in the meantime like lisna said there’s nothing you can do to change the outcome. You are right, all will be good .

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An old acquaintance of mine committed suicide two days back.


It's the second time that happens in my life. That first time was a guy whom I liked very much, though we didn't have much of a relationship. I always thought he was this cool, out-going guy, and I would. have never imagined he would kill himself.

People I knew from primary school/college/high school not being there anymore.

This one wouldn't hit me that hard, if it wasn't for my best friend being very close to that girl.

I mean, sure, she seemed like a goth/edgy teenager, but she seemed perfectly happy in school. She was in a relationship with a pretty weird, but extremely interesting guy, and their relationship seemed perfectly healthy. She had many friends, among them my best friend, as I've mentioned.

I just don't understand the mindset that leads you to that decision.

Especially when taking into consideration all the people it will affect. I mean, I don't usually give a **** about people I know, but I would never kill myself, or at least kill myself without a word, because I realize how it would affect the people around me.

Like, how is her boyfriend supposed to feel? Or her parents? Or my best friend who tried to give her. emotional support for the last couple of years?

I just don't understand and I don't know what to feel.

Im pretty beat up.

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nobody has an obligation to live for anyone else

sorry for your loss though

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it's not that much of my loss, as a loss for people I know.

I mean, I've basically upgraded from friend to therapist to people I know and love who knew that girl very well.

Her decision is something that touches people she would've never thought it would touch. Like thrice removed cousins or something.

My best friend is basically a shell of his former self right now, he's not capable of talking about anything else, and I'm starting to feel the weight of that loss, even though I only knew her from a couple of parties and sometimes talking to her during breaks.


I do believe that you do live for others. In the sense that you need to realize the consequences of your actions on others, and you should take them into account.
What individual pain could possibly warrant pain for tens, if not hundreds of individuals?

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