Working on a show with a girl I despise...or despised previously. It being a super small cast (3 people, mainly just the girl I despised and me for most rehearsals) we've had to converse a bit. Over the course of the rehearsal schedule, I've determined that she doesn't suck as much as I previously believed. I think I was kind of biased against her because I hooked up with her ex girlfriend a while back, and she was a total bitch to me then. Now, I realize that she and I get along really well. And she is really very attractive, intelligent, and interesting.
I'm seriously unable to pursue anything for some reason, even just to test the waters. I can't do it, and I don't know why it should be any different with this one girl than with other girls. People keep yelling at me now to go for it, because she has expressed interest, but both of us are too awkward about it for anything to happen for some reason. This...is not me. I do not get flustered like this usually. I'm very irritated and disappointed in myself.
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