This is what happens to your body, it breaks down in defacement. The first day you’re crying, heaving, puking, screaming, and wondering why death just doesn’t finish you off right there. It becomes soundless in your own head and your heart beat goes back and forth between wanting to continue and not. Your skin sears in pain at any touch, it stings and burns that you’re surprised all the blood isn’t bursting through your pores. You can’t move much but all you want to do is desperately crawl out of this agony. You close your eyelids but there is nothing but a million spiders with their long legs rapidly moving towards you. Your body eventually crashes into torpor but you awake ten minutes later. Your body demands for another fix, it won’t hurt, just please, stop this pain. Cry. Beg. Scream. Puke. You don’t know if you’re going to make it, in fact you don’t want to make it. Close your eyes and end it. I’m ready. Except you do not die. You pass out again in writhing anguish. You awake feeling like your entire skeleton was ripped out of your skin, through your muscles, tearing out every organ as all the blood spews in laughter. But it’s not, in fact your sweat glands are working overtime as you lay there soaked in it. You’re suddenly paralyzed with numbness, you scream in misery, you feel your eyebrows draw together and you’re wondering how you’re producing oxygen to your lungs. Well it’s very shallow. Just enough to keep you barely alive. This is what happens to your body.
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