I just want to tell you how much I've enjoyed reading your journal. You seem like a very private person, so it's nice to catch a glimpse of what's behind the mysterious persona that is Pedestrian.
I can't say I can relate to the Christmas angst, having never celebrated it. It really has always been just another day. But my heart goes out to you because I do know what it's like to have things like relationships, family, and just a general sense of normalcy seem to pull apart over time. Your last sentence really got me. "Don't forget the small things." It's so easy to do isn't it? But those are the things that really make life, not just the holidays, special. Not to get sappy or anything...
I sincerely hope that tomorrow finds you a bit more cheerful and that something happens to put a smile on your face.
Happy Holidays lady.
