As an alcoholic, i do need alcohol or some drug in order to have fun.
As a fairly antisocial person it's my best tool to be more outgoing. It kills a lot of negative self conscious thoughts in my brain and the fact that I can drink a retarded amount is perceived as a cool characteristic by others, mostly those younger then me.
I often black out, but seem to be a fairly entertaining drunk.
The thought of trying to dance with a girl sober is very scary to me, i need to be drunk or at least the placebo of an altered state of mind to be comfortable with myself in that type of environment.
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