I actually ended up caving and buying a pack right after writing that as I knew I probably would. The worst thing about my addiction to cigarettes is that I know I can stop for awhile after buying this pack, so it really leaves little incentive to fully quit. I can seriously just buy a pack, smoke it and then decide that I'm done for a while, with awhile meaning anything from a few months to a year. However it's always temporary as I know at some point I will go out, be it when I'm out at a bar, or just having a stressful week. Right now I've got one smoke left and I don't know if I will go buy another one or not right now, I'm pretty unhappy with things right now, but I really don't want to turn this into something bigger than it is. I was actually happy that I had my pack with me on Saturday when I went to a party in which I only knew 1 person and was the oldest person there by a good few years. It wasn't a high school party, but there was mostly just freshmen and sophomore college students and I'm 23 going on 24 so yeah... I spent most of my time out on the balcony smoking.
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