Its just over three weeks now since a good friend of mine and a huge part of my past committed suicide. This weekend has been both a happy one (a friend had his engagement party and got a lot of people back together for the night for it) and a painful one, as I continue to listen to a lot of music that brings back memories, some of which I havent listened to for years, and go through photographs.
I discovered that I actually have many more photos of him and of those days than I thought I did. Like the music I'm listening to, I havent seen some of these for years. I also found one or two videos taken on an old mobile phone.
I think the best way to describe today and this weekend in general is relatively happy and healing but extremely painful.
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