Flyingpig437

I met Cheryl on the way home from the pub. I was pretty drunk a/w she went back to the kebab shop with me and sat talking to me while the kebab came. It was ****in' fantastic although I definetly got the impresseion she didn't really like me but she was probably just thinking about wanting to make some money and knew that wasn't going to happen with me. I told her I was obsessed with her and loved her and thought she was cool and ever since we'd first met I'd been thinking about her a lot. We talked a lot or rather I did. Some salient points-Sue, the name tattooed on her hand is her dead sister. I asked her about it and she said she'd died of 'epilepsy' it was blatantly obvious that she was using 'epilespy' as a euphimsm for heroin. -She calls going for a pee a 'piddle' which diminishes her coolness status somewhat. We were sat in the kebab shop waiting for it when I said I needed to go 'for a...' and she just interjected 'piddle'. The cool thing was though I went behind a van in the car park next to the kebab shop and she was waiting for me with our kebab. I repeatedly told her she was gorgeous and that when I won the lottery I'd get her off the street. Even though I was drunk I think I managed to be diplomatic about things for the most part although I'm bound to have let on in someway some of the more negative thoughts I've had about her. The most disapoing thing was how abruptly she left me after eating her half of the kebab plus she didn't hug me and she's a big hugger in geeneral. I found out she's 27 and i think I asked her if she had a boyfriend and I'm prety sure she said no. I think I was trying to get her to come back to my bedsit jsut to keep me company and stuff but she said she was staying out working. I can't remember much about what I was saying to her though. It was mainly bringing up thing to do with our previous encounters. I seemed to keep saying things like 'do you remember...' and getting the impression she didn't. For e.g I asked her if she remembered seeing me last week in the afternoon and saying 'Hi darling' but I can't remember what she said in reply. She didn't seem to say much and just seemed to give me brief token responses but I don't mind too much. It was just so cool sat in that kebab shop sitting across the table from her for 5 mins waiting for the kebab even though it's now beyond dispute that she's basically just using me and I had an underlying feeling that the conversation wasn't flowing too well on account of her basic lack of interest in me. Still I've been into town now about 5 times hoping to meet her when walking back while drunk and take her for a kebab and finally last night that dream came true. I think my fav. moment was when I said 'you're always starving' and she smiled and said 'I know'. It was probably the only moment of any kind of affection between us. The low point I won't detial but it basically entailed me smiling at an inappropirate meoment. I'm very worried about that 'cause if she clocked it and realised what it might mean then she'll hate my guts. I want to die!

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