Always. I've always been mentally messed up. Horrible ADHD, anxiety (could be part of the ADHD) and depression. I've also just done some weird things. I remember one time in middle school, I was using a calligraphy set I bought from Waldenbooks. I showed the pen to my teacher, saying, "Look what I found!" I don't know why I said that. I bought it. It was mine. I guess I was trying to be funny in a weird way. She then responded, "Oh! That looks like the pen that Mr. Kotula (not sure how I still remember his name) lost. He's next door." I go next door. Why? "So, I heard you lost a pen. Is this it?" "Yeah, that does look like it. Thank you." Then I gave it to him. I wasn't being nice, I honestly put what she was saying above what I KNEW. It was MINE goddamn it.
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Your eyes were never yet let in to see the majesty and riches of the mind, but dwell in darkness; for your God is blind.
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