So the day has just started and I've spent it dealing with agoraphobia. Did some extensive psychological research and the info I found about panic attacks, uncomfortability around crowds, dull vestibular system, counterpart visual and tactile accentuation seems to come together understandably well.
I'm not to sure but I've decided to let it be instead of fighting it in denial. It seems to get worse, and perhaps if I do change will happen. Fear seems to be progressive rather than growing out of it. Next I'm going to look up treatments today.
Apart from that I'll be off to Tafe college inquiring about a marine ops course, and finally make a productive career. Deck hands alone make $60,000 annually. So reaching cert. 4 after a series of courses will make an illegibility for boat driving, commercially speaking. A lot more money involved in that, but more importantly, I get to live on the sea. So calming.
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