Thank you very much everyone for your replies and I feel very fortunate to have people I have never met offer words of comfort but I would also like to include those I mentioned in my recent post here in saying that life does go on and that they too are no longer here or have gone through the same things as I have.
MB is a very rare beast regarding it's members and a truly great community. Now I must write my crawling letter to the mods to be reinstated
