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Originally Posted by Freebase Dali
Just a question, but would you say your connection to him on an emotional level at this point is mostly one consisting of a need for retribution?
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Definitely. It's accompanied by some really nasty fits of rage to the point I think I'm going to actually black out and become violent. Above everything, it hurts the most. He wants me to be his f
ucking nurse again when he depreciated everything I've worked to become, above all a good person. He called me weak for that and that's why I ****ing left him, I left our home in the same state I keep going into and I trashed the entire apartment. I just want it to hurt him as much as it did me but at the same time I don't want the nasty feelings he elicits in me to define me. It should be enough for me that he's going to be a lonely piece of sh
it that no one can love, but it's not.