Not as much as I used to be. It wasn't until a little over than a year ago that I stopped believing in God. Then I had a philosophy class that triggered existential despair, which was overwhelming for a few months. But I've come to accept it. I think Roger Ebert said it best: "I was perfectly content before I was born, and I think of death as the same state." The fear of death arises from the idea that you'll be able to regret not being alive. But you won't, so there's no need to waste your precious time dreading it. Where you are, death is not, and vice versa.
Still, there are times when I stop, look around, and wish it all didn't have to end.
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