RoxyRollah

Hrmm..my family I wish I could say I had a wonderful
family. I fully recognize the jealousy I feel when
others tell me about their awesome family...I stay away
from mine for huge blocks of time, hoping that when
I resurface they will be the people I want them to be
instead of the dysfunctional bat **** crazy beings they
are...Well I have to say I am comfortable enough
with the mb community to reveal a few things...
When I was a little girl my mother passed away,
I was raised by her sister...so not only did I feel like the
odd girl out to make matters stranger I grew up in a cult.
Which when I was younger I never knew we were different
my teen years were spent abroad so I never really grasped
why people in my home town shyed away from me..
When I turned 18 I left and didn't look back...But as I
got older I discovered what "normal families"
were like and mine became a HUGE source of pain and
shame... They say you can leave this type of background
that you once you make up your mind you can be free
I've been "free" for about 11 years .....but I have never
really been free...its always there the ghosts of the past...
so I guess I have a love hate relationship with my kin...
I hate them because of what I was forced to belive..but
I love them because they are my blood and like it or not
they are mine....

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