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Originally Posted by Vanilla
May I ask which disorders?
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I thought my generalized anxiety disorder was morphing into something a lot more serious.
My mom expressed concern to me a few months after she noticed that I didn't cry at family member's funerals (being sad is one thing but crying is something that I don't handle well in myself and other people). I don't have a total lack of empathy towards people, though (I do have a heart!), and I don't often feel guilty about things I've done that might have negatively affected others. I am never sure how to express emotions like sadness and anger, because I'm not exactly sure what I'm supposed to feel when faced with a situation that would warrant those feelings. When I have a goal I will do whatever it takes to complete it, and I would have no problem cutting people out of my life if they were hindering it in some way. I do not have mood swings or extremely violent urges.
The doctor said, with the information I provided to her, that I fit the description of borderline antisocial personality disorder (psychopath/sociopath). Not the serial killer/rapist/criminal kind, but a high functioning kind. But
borderline. Doesn't sound exactly definite and I'm not sure I fit the criteria. But it's a start.