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Originally Posted by Sequoioideae
So, today I had some Lady tear me apart over a .79 cupcake. The fact that a cupcake is more important than another human being, and how she went great lengths to make me feel like shit completely ruined my day. If I had a gun at the time, my life would have ended in a dispute over a fucking cupcake, I'm fucking pathetic. My pathetic nature is only outclassed by my incompetence.
I hate myself so damn much, so very much.
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I've noticed you have been feeling really down at the moment and I want to know you've got the entire Music Banter community behind you. Many of us have experienced low points, if not depression and anxiety. I myself have been depressed over 3 years ago due to an assault. I have many times contimplated how easy it would be to end it all but then I remember how many people I'd hurt and leave behind. I have wondered in the past if I can physically stomach getting through, I was followed by the black dog for a very long time.
I think you are great, I know it's not easy to see it like that when it's easier to blame yourself for problems but you are so much stronger than what you give yourself credit for. Have you considered talking to someone about it, perhaps a professional who could offer a different perspective on your situation right now? If you ever do feel like life is getting to much, please hold on, ring any of the numbers in this link:
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I apologise if I got the wrong country!
But I am ALWAYS available if you need a chat. You might not feel comfortable with this but I am across the other side of the world and care very much. So PM me any time.