Originally Posted by jackhammer

I actually sat for a long while last week and pondered suicide. It wasn't a plea for anything or a cry for help. I just didn't want to worry about anything or be culpable for anything anymore and just wanted to go away and not be anywhere anymore.

I am responsible for things though and had to drag myself out of that state of mind but I do have 2 teenage sons who should really be giving me something back emotionally or maybe I am just hoping for too much.