raju123

Look, I know this might sound ridiculous but i'm the type of person who would do anything to get something I truthfully want.
I decided to post this here since this is a music community.

so here it is..
I'm 18, I just graduated from high school recently, and i was struggling to realize what i'll be, my choices varied from forensic psychology to marine biology...then it hit me.
you see i have had several issues in my life so far, things like extreme depression and anxiety disorder..things that ruin some people's lives..never mind sorry this is no help forum.

anyway, music has always been there for me, helped me in a lot of tough times, as it has to many people other than me, so i'm no special case.
then it hit me, music..real classical music.

I never played an instrument before in my life..universities will only accept people with actual experience..
but you see i'm the type of person who would do anything for something they love, I know if i ever met a girl i truly love i would literally die for her if need be.

when I thought of music I felt like this is it and I would do anything to be a real talented musician someday, but just in case i'll sleep on it, maybe it's a fake feeling for all I know..
But what if it isn't? what if what i'm feeling right now is real?

I never played an instrument, I live in a country where music doesn't exist.

so what if I wake up tomorrow feeling the same exact feeling? and the day after that?
I would have to move away, far way just to actually buy an instrument, and practice buy taking classes and lessons and...its a long way.
but i know i can do something and i know i can make it its just...difficult.

but what do people here think? am i just being stupid? even if what i feel is real should i just forget about it? i feel like i can't.

I just...I don't know i wanted advice on this..