Originally Posted by Sequoioideae

My depression is starting to act up again, I don't know why, but I've been thinking about just offing myself a lot more than I usually do. I'm just working and sleeping, I haven't had sex in 2 years, and I haven't been on a date in about 2 years. I'm going crazy seeing all my friends have fun with their lives, and I'm here alone, in bed. I wish I wasn't alive so I could spare myself, and others all of my bullshit. I've flat out tried to make people hate me when I'm hysterical, but they just look at me crazy. Just let me die, please, I'll be happier dead than living the next 20 years of my life alone and possibly working in a grocery store. Why don't people try to encourage others to commit suicide, especially when they've been unhappy most of their lives? They just let them exist in a pit of total unhappiness, but the moment they try and do anything to end it they just tell them to seek help and that it's wrong. They don't care about me, they only care because someone they know will be dead, and death is "scary". If someone wants to die so badly, why not let them end it to spare them of any more suffering?