Originally Posted by Taxman

So basically: I can't sleep more than 4-6 hours every night which makes me very tired and then I just can't get up and do something. I just waste my days laying on my bed and doing nothing while I there's quite a lot that I should go do.
I can't call my friends, I really have no friends anymore, they have started to avoid me,but that's all right. I'm avoiding them too. Most of the time I feel too uncomfortable when I'm with other people so I'm not really looking for their companion anymore.
And still everyday I have to pretend everything's allright and wear a smile while inside I feel more dead than alive. Just if I make it for a pair of months, it'll get better because of the arrival of the summer vacation. Dunno,last summer was the most awful I have ever had so maybe it can't get worse. But still,sometimes I can't help thinking that I wish I was dead.