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Originally Posted by Taxman
When it comes to advices, I dunno if they can help but I'll be seeing a psychologist again and I have a fear of social situations and an anxiety disorder so there. I was bullied badly through my early childhood and it left some marks on me. At least that's what my psychologist says.
And my age, well, I don't like to reveal it, cos it tends to change the view some people have of me and it makes them unable to take me seriously or they say that I'm just a creep complaining about usual teenager things or something, but well, let's be honest, and as much as I hate to admit it cos it takes off a part of my anonymousity (is it spelled so?) I'm sixteen now. Not very old I know. But I have probably been acting like some five years old one.
But I have nothing to lose and everything to gain.
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Sorry, it took so long for me to get back to you!
Now, I asked because, in your posts, I feel a certain youthful energy. There is nothing wrong with that. It doesn't make me think less of you or want to treat you in a condescending manner. I assume, that you are grown enough to use a computer alone, you are grown enough to be treated like the 'cyber adult' you are striving to come across as. So I am gonna give it to you raw dag without a bag. Just like I would anyone who is over 18.
You, are struggling with adolescence and what appears to be a mild depression. But because of your youth, and hormones, and where your brain is physiologically, there is no way I can say in my heart of hearts that yes, you have severe depression. Most people that struggle with it in youth, struggle with it in adulthood. (I know, I did, and still do.) So judging from your posts doll, I think you will be ok, if you learn the proper coping skills, and maybe a little medication for a while. I have taken meds many times throughout my life.There is no shame in your brain being born that way. Missing a few chemicals I mean.
Don't be so goddamn hard on yourself. You are at an age where you are trying so hard, to make sense of ****, and you don't realize that the things you think are so problematic, or catastrophic, are going to look small in comparison as your life continues on and you get older. Trust me. Ain't nothing wrong with you, or whatever it is you have told your self. You are you own worst enemy, as cliche as it is, it is sadly very very true.
If you need to talk ever, I am here. I mean that!
once again love bug, smile, have a lollipop, and tell yourself it's all gonna me alright. For once, try that.