Tristesse

Feelin pretty low today.

Did my last ever shift at Tesco and finally realised that I'd definitely have no chance with the girl working there who I'd fancied since I started there. Was hoping that people would miss me as I spent most of the time trying to make them laugh and entertain them, but I reckon they're probably glad to be rid of me. I don't get how to be normal, it seems everything I do is considered weird and the feeling of isolation and of being an outcast in life is just getting worse and worse. There is nothing positive or that I enjoy in my life anymore, music I used to love is just annoying now and I don't understand why everyone else seems to be happy and able to just get on with everything without being self conscious or depressed all the time.

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