The mental aspect of it is always the worst. I presume internet bullying in that sense involves terrible torture to sensitized individuals. Who knows what playful comments may cause tremors in the brains of young fellows, which may end up halting it at a certain stage of development. My bones still quiver at the thought of swimming or dancing for example.
On the other hand, memories of minor physical instances like the forceful push to the ground or the beating on the backside from an headmaster muster only a slight shrug with a secret sense of superior pride. What really does hurt is the sense of betrayal from a fellow pupil - giving away your petty games to the headmaster to earn points, letting silly secrets out to the entire class - that sort of piffle. It means that a heavy amount of self-isolation is to follow. And some of its byproducts such as melancholy, depression, physical insecurities and an incessant self-consciousness might end up remaining with the person for years or even decades.
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