allright. That feeling called euphoria lasted two and half weeks and now I'm coming down again. I had to quit in the middle of my day at school and just went home. I collapsed completely. Everyone was so glad and all and they just told me how I am too easily irritated and all. So I went home.
I have not taken my pills for anxiety for a long time though because I was feeling pretty well but now it seems that I'm going down and fast. And being abandoned and isolated because of that. I even promised not to cut no more but I did cut even when I was feeling gresty which seems to be pretty pointless but I dunno. I felt great but emtpy, now I feel bad and empty. Whatever. I'm gonna get drunk now probably because I must forget. Someone would be kind if he told me what the hell is wrong with me? This morning I felt great but suddenly something happened and it has never been this serious. I seriously thought I'm going to die.
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