I'm planning on going out tonight to a gay bar about 10 minutes away and trying to meet a decent dude to hop in a bed with. Nervous as hell. I've been almost blown by another dude, I've had my dick in another dude's ass for barely 5 minutes before bailing. I don't know what to do really, I'm not a sexually confident person at all but this confusion has had me pent up and anxious for too damn long. I know I like women, so there's solace in that at least.
I guess I'm worried that like every other time I've tried to hook up with a guy I'm just gonna end up meeting a bunch of old creeps that are only interested because I look young and I'm just so not down with being some creepy guy's boytoy. Fvck off with that ****, I can't understand why dudes would expect me to be okay with that. I hope I've never come across that way to somebody because goddamn that ****'s annoying as hell.
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I spit bullets in my feet
Every time I speak
So I write instead
And still people want me dead
~msc
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