fvck today.
blew it with cute girl regular customer, acted total douchebro to her. didn't even deserve it. **** mood all day. hella fvcking busy. coworker is great at the register and helping tidy/clean up but not much else... ugh. I am so looking forward to my vacation. I think I'll just end up getting tanked and wandering around dancing at whatever place seems the coolest. And then I'll go up to washington and buy a pound of weed for the fvck of it. All I can think about lately is sex. With everyone. I think I have a problem... I am sexually attracted and aroused by... everyone. It is beyond unsettling poppin a buh-boner every damn time an at least moderately clean and well-mannered person crosses my path. Jesus. And then the insecurities and the dysphoria and the urges and temptations and fck. I should move out to the country where nothing happens and everything is green, blue, and beautiful I am just too damned lustfull.
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I spit bullets in my feet
Every time I speak
So I write instead
And still people want me dead
~msc
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