i'm pretty sure i actually am going to get myself fired. i'm sure people here noticed i'm kind of an ******* online. but irl usually i wear a mask in public to keep up an image. but i got this temp job where even the bosses crack perverted jokes and love to talk **** to each other and they encouraged me to come out of my shell a little. so i tried doing that cause there are a few people there i can actually talk to and understand and i guess it gave me confidence to be myself.
so i started talking **** back to them. i guess sometimes i have a hard time distinguishing whats mean and what's just good fun. so they might say a dumb joke to me like you have some indian (native american) in you right? yea i bet you had about 12 inches in you last night huh huh huh etc. but then when i talk **** back i basically just point out real character flaws or call them slow or make fun of the dumb **** they say. and now i'm the ******* and i'm arrogant etc etc. so i tried correcting that by not talking **** to people anymore. but now i have a target on my back and people pinpoint me even when i'm not causing any problems. i've basically been having a really hard time learning not to say anything back when they keep coming over to criticize me. and basically it's starting to look like insubordination. the boss keeps getting complaints about me even though i haven't really been doing anything anymore.
i know it's a petty problem and it seems easy to correct but i have a really hard time taking random **** from people on top of working a boring job for 12 hours straight. something in me always finds the wrong **** to say. i'll be annoyed at myself more than anything if i get fired over this petty bull****.
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