I notice I go through the same emotional roller coaster every day. It's almost sad, but i've decided to live with it:
Wake up > dread going to work > put myself together > go to work > enjoy the people i work with, but not the work > get off work > realize how lucky i am to have the job that i have even though im underpaid and i feel i can do better > go home > think about how i could find a better job > become anxious and realize i don't stand a chance in finding a better job > watch youtube videos and spend hours of my time on the internet > go to sleep > repeat the next day.
All while being caffeinated from the minute i wake up, to the minute i crash and fall asleep. I'm a very anxious organized mess.
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