I wish I didn't have this burning desire to do this. It's very intimidating coming from my humble, quiet, sheltered background into the world of real musicians, and things I've only seen/heard on TV/radio and actually having to go face to face with it. I feel so inferior and almost don't even want to call myself a "musician", because there is so much for me to learn that I don't even know if I have what it takes. And the fact that no one has believed in me enough to give me a chance almost confirms to me that I don't have what it takes.
You are always told as a kid to "follow your dreams, don't give up on your dreams." But I think that is some of (if not the) worst advice you can give someone. Not everything is achievable. I think that's just how it is. I think I will give up on it all, and go back to the boring, unfulfilling life I never wanted.
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