I have more friends now than I've had at any point before in my life, but I've never been so profoundly lonely as I have the past two months. Having dozens of friends is the same as having none, most days, except it comes with an awareness of that loneliness.
It doesn't help that my neuroses are driving away the friends I do have, because I can't resolve my emotional problems and they're getting bored of listening to them.
I think I'm rounding the bend on depression again, which is the one thing that scares me most in the world.
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