The Batlord

We're gonna bury him today, so I kept him on my bed last night for one last time, with him at my feet, on a little cat bed with a little cat blanket. Maybe it's a little morbid to sleep with a dead cat, but I just didn't want to leave him alone that night when my bed was his favorite place in the world.

I was listening to Iced Earth's song "Watching Over Me" on repeat for a good long while. I'd thought I was done crying -- at the vet I was a bawling wreck, snuggling him when they gave him the injection, cradling his little body afterward -- but this song tugs at my heart strings at the best of times, and I just couldn't keep it together for the next few hours. This song is definitely gonna be my masochistic go-to whenever I lose a loved one. I'm kind of maxed out on emotions at the moment, but I'm still breaking up a little bit even now listening to it. I thought about rewatching that Dexter series finale, just for a little catharsis, but clearly I'm not ready for that kind of emotional devastation right now.

Thanks to Jon Schaffer for writing this overwrought, melodramatic piece of cheese. Whatever you want to say about the band, this song definitely comes from a real place, with a real tragedy behind it, and is as emotionally pure as any song from any more "serious" band. Dedicated to my little buddy.

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