Originally Posted by RoxyRollah
Ok, so I dig that 70% of people more than likely join the police force in hopes of making the world a better place. I respect that, and personally, I haven't ever been a dick to the police, even when having my face rearranged a second time. But ok, like that story I told you and Exo and some other people the other day is a prime example of people taking their job to the extreme and not reading in between the lines. I am just gonna use that as a format for what I am gonna say.
So right, shotgun in my face and sitting in my car, do you think I was anything but polite to the police? Honestly. When they started screaming where are the drugs and I just held my hand out the window and turned it over to them was it really necessary to pull me outta the car and bounce my head off the car? Nope. Like I said to you guys in plug, there is absolutely nothing threatening about me. Like nothing. I have even made the extra effort to be kind, and respectful, by addressing cops by their rank ect all my life.
Now that is the only time I have ever had a bad experience with the police.(Make no mistake, I have had some very serious run ins with the police. And have walked away from them by the skin of my teeth.) I have also had some minor run ins with them as well.
That particular day I got popped, I didn't want to be breaking the law. I got my ass beat into submission. And I was literally in fear for my life and or safety if I didn't do what was asked of me.
So here you have someone that is broken, right, it's written all over their face their brokenness, and in the way they talk and act, how on God's green earth are you gonna take a bruised, beaten, and bleeding woman to jail after beating her up even more, and then capping it off with a felony jacket. WHEN SHE HAS NO RECORD MIND YOU.
So because of that day, because I was delt a **** hand, a very very **** hand, I am forced to register myself as a felon, and carry a shame with me whenever I apply anywhere for anything or try to do anything.( I am no slouch btw that record doesn't hold me back from anything today but I had to pay handsomely for that. Both monetarily and psychologically).
So,from the moment I went down I had to learn how to survive in this country no longer being an upstanding member of society. For example by me checking into probation, every month I am crammed in an office with some of the worst people I have ever met in my life but me being the person I am and friendly like I am I talk to people, and made some connections I shouldn't have, and did somethings I shouldn't have and learned alot about being a criminal. But the most important thing I learned is that very few people set out to be criminals. Albeit you have the percentage that are for lack of a better term gangsters. That's what they do is crime, it runs in their family it's passed down, prison becomes a right of passage, and no doubt they need to ****ing be there. But the other handful of people are really good decent people, just dealt a **** hand and for whatever reason they chose to make a bad decision.
In my opinion police create criminals, and criminals create police. I was a victim of circumstance right, and it's the been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life crawling back from being what society deemed as a criminal, to not carry fear inside me (which totally never leaves you I still have my release papers in my glove box in my car because I'll be damned if I sit in jail on a clerical error and I was arrested 11 years ago.) If the police weren't doing a sting that day, and it was a patrol officer that busted me I might not have had that happen to me, and my life might be completely different. But because it was what it was and it was a task force of officers and fired up good ole boy ones at that, I was ****ed from the start and from that day on I am never really sure if the cop I encounter is looking at me or my jacket, you feel me?
That my friend has nothing to do with law makers, that has to do with the people we entrust to keep us safe, and keep order, being so regimented, hardened to the job, or whatever not making a human judgement call. And that's bull****. And that should be addressed, I dunno if that means giving you sensitivity training, and maybe giving even more power to law enforcement, I dunno. And I am not sure this is even a good response to what you wrote, I was just kinda thinking.
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