I actually (sort of) tried prostitution once during my drug days.
I got convinced to do it actually and I accepted a $20 bill for a blowjob and then since I didn't know how it worked, when he wanted more I agreed.
It was horrible and I barely remember it and I definitely would not do it like that again.
I also felt coerced into having sex with my dealer's dealer because he was a big guy who went to prison 847389 times and killed some people I guess. I really didn't want to but I was scared to say no.
Also meth tells you things and you believe them even when they're not real, then it'll turn around and tell you something else and make you think that your previous belief was something even sketchier.
idk
maybe this is enough internet for the day
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im scared to get close and i hate being alone
i long for that feeling, to not feel at all
the higher i get, the lower i'll sink
i cant drown my demons, they know how to swim
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