well, at this point in my life, I haven't a clue what I'm going to do. I've been in college for a year now, and realized that fine arts was a complete and utter mistake. I've decided to go into photojournalism wiht a two year program, and aside from that, not the foggiest idea of what I want for a career or a life. That may sound typical for a 19 year old, but not for me. My entire life, I've ALWAYS had a concrete life plan. Even though now I realize how rediculous that is, as your plans are constantly changing and evolving (especially for someone that young), I got really attached to that sense of certainty about where I was going. Now, I'm completely lost, and once I got over the huge disorientation, I realized something. For the first time in my life, I'm starting out with a clean slate. I don't have any obligations, I don't have to feel as though I'm giving up on something I've worked years for, and I no longer have to worry about continuing on with something that I felt I SHOULD do, as opposed to what I wanted to do. I can finally live my life, entirely of my own accord. Up until now, my life was made up of a number of extensions of other things, it was an extension of my friends' lives, my parents', etc etc. and now, all there is to consider is me. and I'm loving it.
right now it's time to shake my foundations, flip everything I know upside down, and live knowing that I finally can live without pressure. bring it on
