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Originally Posted by djchameleon
This is exactly why I stopped taking mines as well. I was also completely convinced that my psych was testing on me and making me take placebos so I just ended up flushing them. I got to the point where I told her not to give them to me anymore because it was just a waste of money. I would just come home and flush the entire bottle once I got it.
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I find it's really only the more heavy-duty, old-school benzos (Thorazine and Seroquel in too-high doses) but mood stabilizers and milder benzos don't seem to have that effect at all, in terms of the dulling effect. (There also seems to be this myth that one can only be wildly creative if you're
miserable and off-the-rails, but that's not true at all) Based on what I've observed from schizophrenic and bipolar friends in the past. Really it's all a matter of finding a
very good doctor who specializes in your particular affliction and actually cares.
Edit: also, meds are often the only thing that can actually prevent violent rages and manic upswings; this is extremely important because most bipolar suicides--for instance--occur while they're in a manic state rather than in a depressed state, as commonly assumed. An ex of mine had rages until he began taking a low dose of Thorazine and also Klonopin 2x/daily-- nothing else, not therapy, not mindfulness or anything helped other than that. But people are stubborn.