Well I've decided I'm willing to give up my phone, internet, (already stopped paying for TV), my car. Basically, I'm willing to do just rent, food, power, water, and library. I honestly think I can take food to ramen, eggs, cabbage, potatoes - all of which I can get at the food bank. Water comes with my rent, I could live in public housing- high crime doesn't matter that much. I also think living in a homeless shelter and just reading and going to the food bank would be better. I'd lose my music collection but whatever. I've also considered being a drug mule. I thought about dealing but I know my dealer well and I honestly don't think I have his skill set. It's tricky. Transporting drugs up and down the east coast seems reasonable. If I got caught whatever. Life has to be worth living. I'm going to get a CDL. Maybe just be a legit truck driver. Listen to music and drive. I don't even like driving but a job where you're alone and can listen to music. If I lived in a shelter, showered at the Y, ate almost for free, got books at the library I could maybe I could just work two days a week and keep a phone and Spotify. All I know is I can't continue what I'm doing.
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