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Originally Posted by Chula Vista
You might have surprised yourself. Neither of my kids were planned for what it's worth.
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I know you qualified that with "might". I think I would have worked very hard at it. But I'm so clear about it. I don't want one. I never wanted one. I wouldn't want to work hard at it. I've said to people exactly that clearly and heard I think you'd make a great father. The ****? What could possibly be a better indicator that you shouldn't breed than not wanting a ****ing kid? No matter how I tried how could I be a good father to a kid I wished didn't exist? My mind wouldn't change. I understand that because I was raised by a father who obviously despised my very existence. **** the kid I would have ****ed up. Why the **** would I do that to MYSELF? I wanted to listen to Coltrane not to some **** replica of my own ****ed DNA. Once in my life I wish someone would say Occult you're a ****ed up **** but at least you had sense enough not to have a goddamn kid. It's like one of the very few responsible decisions I ever made.