I went in to get my eye thing looked at (I'm 95% sure it's blephartis) seeing as it has now spread to the other eye. That plus the mystery rash on my face that's now spread to my chin. I look like a disgusting monster. The doctor poked at my eye for a minute and essentially shrugged. She didn't diagnose me. She just gave me antibiotics. And she was extremely condescending and rude the entire time. Guess I'll be going to a dermatologist + eye doctor if necessary. I will likely end up having to order whatever they give me on a canadian or indian online pharmacy which is annoying because the shipping takes a long time, but oh well.
edit: well, I did actually manage to clear the rash from my cheeks but seeing as I have rosacea I look bad regardless.

And I completely forgot to ask for Prozac. That's the one antidepressant (the one SSRI, that is-- they won't let me try the older antidepressants for some stupid reason) I haven't tried yet. The rest haven't worked at all and I really need something for my OCD and depression but I cannot afford a psychiatrist. Part of me doesn't want to bother ever trying more medication again, but seeing as everyone around me likes to guilt-trip me and treat me extremely strangely when I'm depressed, I figure I might as well try one last time.