i can't sleep. I'm cranky because i can't sleep.. i can't sleep because i can't stop thinking. i can't stop thinking because i'm cranky about my life. i'm cranky about my life because i'm alone, and i'm this way because i choose to wait for someone to be ready, and its been 6 months now.. but still i wait. i miss being kissed, being held and it ****ing sucks. i'm cranky because i'm trying to let go.. well not trying but i think my mind is letting go but my heart is holding on, but i can't stop thinking about him, and this situation.. which makes me really cranky.. so now i'm bitter.. i can't sleep and its 1:15 am here i'm over tired, and need to pee.. but i won't because i'm that bitter at myself at my mind, at my heart that i don't care.. grrr..
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