Thanks all.
It's not looking good. He deteriorated rapidly. They're worried there may be brain damage and his kidneys are not doing good either. The doctors are not hopeful. They're bringing an infectious disease specialist and a kidney specialist in and if isn't too frail tonight they'll do a CT scan. I handle death and crises fairly well usually since I can detach but this is so sudden and jarring. He's on full support and is extremely unresponsive. We are just waiting for him to stabilize. Meanwhile, I'm having to prepare for the worst; my brother is my dad's entire life and I worry about what he may do if my brother dies. Anyway, I can only type this right now because I'm in a state of detached shock (until I see my brother in the ICU again with all the tubes in him-- then it all hits me). Won't really know anything until they can do a CT scan. I've been worried about his health for years and have actually gone through this scenario in my head but I am extremely worried about my parents. They're crumbling before my eyes. My sister and I are just trying to hold everyone together and keep them from falling into a guilt spiral again.
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