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Key · 04-11-2018, 08:39 PM

So my final say on this (and honestly, I'm surprised I even have to have one): Looking back at my original post, I still cannot for the life of me see any reason for anybody to find what I said controversial. All I was doing was congratulating Chio on her new job. I simply added to that by saying that I don't understand what it means to have a ****ty job anymore as I have a job that I love. For one reason or another, mostly Frownland and Bat, that was seen as offensive and it spiraled this all out of control. And tbh, I'm surprised to see Trollheart getting into the mix as he himself has had multiple uproars that has left him steaming. I'm disappointed to see that someone I considered a pretty good friend, to just straight up forget about any of that and join in on the unfortunate back and forths between myself and the others. The other thing I'm pretty sad about is the fact that not only did nobody decide to read my original post, everyone else found it funny to just join in on what was already taking place, thus leaving me to defend myself. I answered all the questions that were asked, I provided a list to Frownland, and that was a legitimate one. Instead of accepting that, Occult then decided to point out one point I made, and spiral that out of control, thus leaving me on the defensive. As far as I can tell, this whole thing could have been avoided had Frownland (who is currently a mod as far as I can tell) decided to stop the madness and not start it. You'll deny any responsibility of course, but it's right there on the thread.

I'm not going to apologize for what I said, due to the fact that I still have not been able to find any reason for the backlash. I expressed an opinion about my current situation, and attempted to express that. Did I say it the wrong way? Perhaps I did. But the amount of steam that was being thrown around was not what I expected to happen, nor should I have. Sure, I'll take personal responsibility for the backlash. Fine. Let me have that so you don't have to. However, I still see no reason to apologize for expressing an opinion about my own personal endeavors. That doesn't seem right.

And to end it, you won't be seeing me around at this forum. For good this time. The several prior months that I was gone before recently were some of the most rewarding and depressing days of my life. I found myself just looking at everything through a different lens, and even today I deal with the depression of what some things were during those months. However, I've been able to reward myself with the job that I have, by it allowing me to not only love working there, but be able to finally buy stuff for myself for a change. I mean, I went several years without feeling any self worth, and I'm finally at the point where I can feel myself getting that back again. Yeah, I smoke cigarettes again and sure, I'm stoned 99% of the time now. I don't see those as faults though as I feel like that's just the kind of person I want to be. Not everybody has the opportunity to find themselves and improve on themselves at my age. I turn 27 in a month. That's closer to 30. I need to get this life **** figured out. And having a job that I love going to and love doing is a big factor in that.

Hope you understand my side. I'm not expecting responses, nor will I be responding to any.

Let's close this whole argument and you guys can enjoy your time here without me barging into every thread.

Thanks.

Peace.

04-11-2018, 08:39 PM	#50010 (permalink)
Key . Join Date: Dec 2010 Posts: 13,153	So my final say on this (and honestly, I'm surprised I even have to have one): Looking back at my original post, I still cannot for the life of me see any reason for anybody to find what I said controversial. All I was doing was congratulating Chio on her new job. I simply added to that by saying that I don't understand what it means to have a **ty job anymore as I have a job that I love. For one reason or another, mostly Frownland and Bat, that was seen as offensive and it spiraled this all out of control. And tbh, I'm surprised to see Trollheart getting into the mix as he himself has had multiple uproars that has left him steaming. I'm disappointed to see that someone I considered a pretty good friend, to just straight up forget about any of that and join in on the unfortunate back and forths between myself and the others. The other thing I'm pretty sad about is the fact that not only did nobody decide to read my original post, everyone else found it funny to just join in on what was already taking place, thus leaving me to defend myself. I answered all the questions that were asked, I provided a list to Frownland, and that was a legitimate one. Instead of accepting that, Occult then decided to point out one point I made, and spiral that out of control, thus leaving me on the defensive. As far as I can tell, this whole thing could have been avoided had Frownland (who is currently a mod as far as I can tell) decided to stop the madness and not start it. You'll deny any responsibility of course, but it's right there on the thread. I'm not going to apologize for what I said, due to the fact that I still have not been able to find any reason for the backlash. I expressed an opinion about my current situation, and attempted to express that. Did I say it the wrong way? Perhaps I did. But the amount of steam that was being thrown around was not what I expected to happen, nor should I have. Sure, I'll take personal responsibility for the backlash. Fine. Let me have that so you don't have to. However, I still see no reason to apologize for expressing an opinion about my own personal endeavors. That doesn't seem right. And to end it, you won't be seeing me around at this forum. For good this time. The several prior months that I was gone before recently were some of the most rewarding and depressing days of my life. I found myself just looking at everything through a different lens, and even today I deal with the depression of what some things were during those months. However, I've been able to reward myself with the job that I have, by it allowing me to not only love working there, but be able to finally buy stuff for myself for a change. I mean, I went several years without feeling any self worth, and I'm finally at the point where I can feel myself getting that back again. Yeah, I smoke cigarettes again and sure, I'm stoned 99% of the time now. I don't see those as faults though as I feel like that's just the kind of person I want to be. Not everybody has the opportunity to find themselves and improve on themselves at my age. I turn 27 in a month. That's closer to 30. I need to get this life ** figured out. And having a job that I love going to and love doing is a big factor in that. Hope you understand my side. I'm not expecting responses, nor will I be responding to any. Let's close this whole argument and you guys can enjoy your time here without me barging into every thread. Thanks. Peace.