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Originally Posted by The Batlord
Well I lapsed, but I'm not really bothered by it tbh. Yesterday I had a **** day and just wanted a bit of oblivion and felt like I needed a drink like I needed my right hand, and when I didn't get any booze it sucked. But today was pretty alright as BK days go and I didn't feel like I needed a drink so much as I was looking forward to unwinding with a nice binge drink session.
Maybe alcoholism is just being sneaky but I think what I really want is just to not have some 1-day-on-1-day-off schedule that feels like a second job that's about making my **** life go away for a while. I don't feel like I've failed right now, I just feel like today is a good day all things considered and I'm getting a bit knackered to cap it off. I went two days longer without a drink than I almost ever do anymore so at least I know I can get over that hump of needing a drink right the **** now.
But the next time I've had a day I just feel the need to erase I think I'll just skip the booze and wait till I'm in a more level-headed place.
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good luck with the kicking the booze habit batlord, that stuff is addicting because it comes with all the rituals of either opening ups tons of cans or pouring drink after drink. maybe try to create small goals to work towards bigger goals. like if you want to start running, run just around the block 5 times, then 10 times when you feel like going further. or if its building your body, you'll notice gains if you go to the gym. maybe be as healthy as you can on your off drinking days to prepare your body for the poison, idk peace fam
ever tried to just smoke only weed and no alcohol. its not as easy as it sounds but its a generic way to be sober from the harder drugs out there
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