Yeah I'm not disagreeing with any of you. I don't actually need to be convinced that booze is bad for me and that I'm on the fast track to self-destruction. I'm well aware and think about it constantly. Knowing this isn't the problem. Caring is the problem. I don't. I know this is irrational, but I don't care about that either, at least not in a transformative way. This is not about realizing anything, this is about irrational indifference and how forcing myself to do anything about it would require caring. Which I don't.
All the advice in the world is meaningless and tbh if I actually did care then I probably would be trying to minimize my bull**** and argue with you people because I would be emotionally invested in proving myself right so that I wouldn't feel the need to change, but I don't care and so it's no skin off my nose if I openly accept all of this because it will not force me to change my ways because nothing seems to do that anyway.
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Originally Posted by J.R.R. Tolkien
There is only one bright spot and that is the growing habit of disgruntled men of dynamiting factories and power-stations; I hope that, encouraged now as ‘patriotism’, may remain a habit! But it won’t do any good, if it is not universal.
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