It's a mixture of my upbringing, family, negative energy, etc. I have trouble comprehending people most of the time and I get anxious very easily since I don't typically have anybody to talk to about it. I sort of just keep it inside when I'm by myself and though thats not healthy, I express it through music. I've dealt with anxiety and depression for over 10 years and while it's not gotten much worse, there's been days where I truly want to kill myself but I never do it.
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