I feel kind of weird talking about my mental health in public these days, but does anyone here have suicidal thoughts all of the time? I've had them since I was in kindergarten, and I think they would stop at some point, but they never really have. The only sort of childhood trauma I've had was being hospitalized and made fun of for my self harming and being awkward. It feels wrong to have these feelings, and thoughts for no discernible reason other than chemical imbalances. Medications help my mood, but not the thoughts. I've been trying to keep a lot of how I feel from people to avoid worrying them as everyone has problems in general. I don't want to be the one friend that complains about everyone and everything in their life.
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