I wish I could stop caring about my appearance. I try to, by periodically chopping off most of my hair (usually at 4 am, usually while listening to Einstürzende Neubauten and feeling a bit manic) and assuming it will help desensitize me to my paralyzing fear of being ugly *cue Margaret Atwood ominously chanting "YOU ARE YOUR OWN VOYEUR" in the distance* but it never works for long and I end up just hating myself for cutting my hair. Fortunately it always grows back quickly. Ugliness is much more interesting than generic beauty anyway IMO. We should all aspire to be ugly. When I am officially an Old, I hope, I will embrace ugliness and scamper around the village terrorizing the police.
And yeah, purging isn't a good way to lose weight. (I could always tell which actresses on teen shows of yore were bulimic due to the puffiness) I can't imagine you actually need to lose any weight though elph, you look like you're still the same willowy elven boy.
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formerly Chiomara
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